My New Year Resolution for 2010! (Thursday, December 31, 2009 / 9:44 PM)
New Year's finally here. Well, not here yet but in another few hour and minutes' time. 2009 is not really a good year for me. Well, basically, I miss my ex-HGS schoolmates and classmates. Rui Lin was the only girl from HGS that joined me in GMSS. It is really disappointing and sad. Furthermore, I am not really close with her... Nonetheless, at least I have a friend to accompany with.
I missed my best friends and atmosphere that my crazy classmates used to do. It is just a sad thing to see all those memories fading away. I missed my dedicated teachers and schoolmates that are so friendly and funny.
This year though, was so much different. I am in a co-ed school. I am so not used to it. I was from a girls' school and now I am in a mixed school. OK, I know. I may not be that communicative with people of the opposite sex but it is just who I am. I don't know why. I am weird. When I was still in Malaysia, I used to be in a co-ed school too and I managed to mix along with everyone. Then, when I was transferred to Singapore, I can't mix along with the girls alone... After a few months, I adapted. And now, I cannot seem to go back to normal again by mixing with everyone.
It is just a whole cycle repeating itself. Haizzz. Was I just so paranoid? Why can't I mix with EVERYONE? I wanna be friendly but I can't seem to be that way. I am such a failure. Have I loosen my adaptation 'trick'? Am I becoming a total nerd?
I do miss my best friends. I have insomnia nowadays and I just feel so depressed. I tried to be happy and reassured that everyday will turn out fine. It just doesn't seem to turn out the way I wanted. My close friends in GMSS are not as supportive towards me and they just don't seem to share the same interests as I. I just feel miserable. I wanna get back to the old days. So, I really hope that 2010 will be a good year for me.
My New Year Resolutions are:
1. Eat more (I simply love eating!)
2. Sleep more (Try to get more rest to get rid of insomnia.)
3. Study harder (My results are pretty bad and I wanna improve myself.)
4. Try to be cooler (Haha. Try not be so 'nerdy'.)
5. Try to find out my true talent (Well, I still don't know if I should be a politician or a singer. I really don't know.)
6. Try other ways to make me grow taller (I feel so short among my friends.)
Last but not least. Happy New Year everyone! May you be healthy always and may 2010 be a fruitful and blessed year to all of you!
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