And the Results are All Officially Out... (Thursday, October 22, 2009 / 5:49 PM)
I was in tears and dismay. (again, for the second time this round) I am a stupid, idiotic cry baby. Why am I so
emo. nowadays? For the past two years I was in my primary school, I always failed my Maths but I did not cry. I was brave. Now, I cried because I did badly for my Geography and Literature. Can you believe that? I did not fail at all, just
deproved. And I cried. Pathetic! I am so weak. I am such an utter FAILURE but a WINNER at times.
I expectations for Literature were perhaps, too high. I always set my goal in achieving A1s for my Literature because all the while, I always scored A1s. This morning,
Mdm Chua was like giving out the result slips. When I received mine, I was in total shock. I though she calculated wrongly so I rechecked again but it adds up to the same amount. That's when I broke down into tears. I can't control myself. I am just like a cry baby. Stupid me. Deborah was trying to comfort me but it
turnt out worst. I was thinking about the circumstances if I tell my mother about my results. It
turnt out like an emotional roller coaster ride. I was so sad. Li Tong called my name for so many times but I didn't answer her back. I was so frustrated of myself. Nat, Deborah,
Rui Lin,
Aqilah,
Rasinah, Deanna, Shabira, Zainab and Li Tong were trying to comfort me. I do really appreciate their help as I finally came to my senses. I can't believe that
Mdm Chua saw me crying. She was like consoling me and I was like trying to fight back those tears and trying to smile back and thank her. I am such a dork. Thanks to
Mdm Chua too. I feel really touched.
So, it
turnt out that I scored 68%, B3, instead of an A1 for my Literature exam.
History was a turning point. I can't believe that I scored so high for my History. I usually scored only C6 or the highest, B4. This time round, surprisingly, I scored 81%, A1, for it!
Woots!
My Higher Malay improved a lot too. From C6 to B4, 60%!
I am quite happy and sad too. I am especially sad for my Geography and
Literature papers.
I hope that I can change my
emo. behaviour. I hate being
emo. and some of my friends hate that too. No use crying over split milk...